This past holiday season - Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years - has been life-changing and a fitting crescendo to 2011.
I have often referred to Impact195 as the second best decision I have ever made and that statement still applies.
In Impact I have grown closer to the Lord and I have the joy of knowing His love through the Holy Spirit and Jesus Christ. This love - from God, to God, to others, from others - is the single most important concept we can comprehend.
He made us to love us. He is the Ultimate Creator and it is in His likeness that we are made - as creators. I am made to create, design, perform. Tell stories. Write.
In Impact we are encouraged to journal. This is something I used to do during my most prolific writing periods. Journaling and subsequent writing has always been a conversation with God. In the recent years I've lost sight of that - the voice my Father gave me.
The silence of this voice separated me from God and eventually decayed my desire to do what I was made to do - tell stories that bring glory to God!
To emulate my Father in heaven who wrote down everything in the most published love story ever written is - with my inert talents - all I want to do. Like a child who puts on his dad's shoes and plods around the house.
My creative core leads me - like water running downhill - to do what I know how to do and what I enjoy doing.
It is with a bittersweet heart that I suspend my enrollment in Impact 195 and this time and accept a project for the next several months.
In the industry side of what I do - one must accept work when it comes available and the potential for the work ahead of me is great. This is an opportunity I would never pass on - and it's been difficult coming to this conclusion exclusively because of Impact 195.
I know that this means that if I am to return to Impact that I will need to start at the beginning again - and I agree that is best.
Impact 195 has presented only the absolute truth through God's word during my time enrolled and I know of no ministry better blessed and poised to change the world. I love everyone at Impact and thank God for them.
Ultimately I need to return to what I do - tell stories. This time with deeper resolve to keep Christ at the center of all I do - tell stories.
The time has come to transform the Journaling into writing - my first love - emulating my Father, telling stories.
If this decision is not of The Lord then I look forward to His correction. His Will is perfect in every way and works to His glory!
I welcome and thank you for your prayers. I am happy to be your brother in Christ and for the eternity we will spend together face to face with Him!
Do not look on this as bad news. For there can be no bad news - because Jesus is on the throne!!!
Agape,
Benjamin
